My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

? 

gianah is beautiful <3 

is twilight seriously good?
im too scared to go see it
for fear of disappointment.

is devon cute ;)

-steff

lmao yeah he works at the garwood one. it's so weird that
you've seen him before =X awe, that video is really adorable.
i hope you feel better soon tiff <3

i'll take you belt shopping this weekend since you're staying
here apparently. yeah, aleks says he knows you lol. you
lurker XP. you are beautiful and don't ever let anyone make
you think anything else. you're stronger than all this.
ilysfm<333

You are so beautiful. Every time I see a pic of you, I want to use it in my diary. You embody everything that I think is beautiful, inside and out. You deserve so much better than what you have. Don't give up. Hopefully, one day, you will have the guts to walk away. Just walk away, Tiffany.

yh u r pretty.. babys cute 2

Keep your head up

Keep turning your thoughts to tomorrow's happiness. Do at least one thing every day that makes you feel good. Laugh at me.

[GeorgeC]

Been there done that. Bougth the T-shirt. An official club we have started.

YAY CLUB CLUB CLUB!!!

XXX

I am so sorry. BTW, Nice picture.

best of Wishes,

LibraVamp

Your daughter is absolutely beautiful!!! You are soooo loving and care so much to give this innocent little one a much welcomed home to very lucky people. I wish you the best as you work through your pain of letting her go. You must know how UNselfish you are to choose the path you've taken. Please continue to write, update... release your feelings, anxiety, fears, hopefully good feelings too...

Huge hugs to a very strong gal!!!!

Carol

omg shes absolutly pressuious
especially the foot prints lol

aww im broody now lol

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

girl you can do this! you just need to have hope and be strong!! as for the adoption... you don't have to do it. you can keep your little babe... the gov has programs to help support single young mothers and you should take advatage of the help they offer... also i don't know how it works where you live but dad has to pay child support if you aren't living together... i have read you diary from the beginning of your first one and you can do this without him! i am speaking from the heart because i know your struggle... i have an almost 22 month old and dad and i are still together after 3 1/2 years... i dread every minute of it... i know i would be better off without him (happier) you are still so young that you shouldn't waste you life i know it seems like a long time but it is only 9 months! i am totally not judging i just don't want you to end up in my position :S plus he totally doesn't seem worth your time or tears! think about it cause you can do it... i spent the first 8 months of my little girls life without dad and stupidly let him back into my life and now can't get rid of him!! you gotta do whats best for you and hey let him go be with this other chicky they seem great for each other (both only care about themselves) cause you can do and deserve so much better then he has to offer!!

holly

What does he do for you? Does he support you? Does he keep you alive? If he does none of those things, dump him. He's merely taking up space. Apparently, he gets off being a jerk to you- you don't deserve it.

ew, can i please push him out a window?
a window 10 stories above the ground
preferrably. i hope you feel better tifff<3

it seems we are.
its fucking dumb.
goodluck to you
too <3

-steff

yeah ike and i have
been having problems
too.
and cute picture btw.
i like your smile.

-steff

Tiffany-

Your not a screwup your just a little confused. You just have to make up your mind on what your going to do and have no regrets about it. I hope you do fine. I wish you the best of luck. And you shouldnt have any worries you are so pretty.

-Shygirl-

I had this crazy dream i was pregnant the other day
but it only took two months for me to be ready to
pop the thing out. also, i had to be in the hospital
the entire time i was pregnant.

but the weekend i was about to give birth i ran
away from the hospital and went to my church
but i didnt go into the worship hall bc i didnt
want to see the looks ppl would give me. so
instead i sat in my mom's sunday school room.

finall i got up to use the bathroom and realized
that i had started my period. i started freaking
out bc youre not supposed to have your period when
youre pregnant. and as the day progressed my
stomach got smaller and smaller and i cried bc
although i didnt want a kid yet i didn't want it to
disappear bc i already loved it.

weird huh?

-steff

i hate babysitting too. but i bet i do it a lot more than you...on the bright side the kids i babysit(mty siblings) arnt to bratty lol.

xx

sorry i missed :[ wanna have a
sleepover tomorrow though :D?
forever is a long time. i thought
i'd be with ian forever, but that
never worked out. don't worry
about it, love. beautiful pictures <3

you are so, so pretty.

i hope the things you're feeling are only temporary, i'll keep you in my prayers.

=]

I had those lonely moments too. They really sucked. And then when I got older, I started to cherish those moments alone. I would do my hair and my nails. I would practice putting on make up, new techniques and stuff. And then I would lay down in my cushy bed and read a long novel.  

I'm sorry :(

no i dont go to college. i just go to an arts school.
it's 7th-12th grade. im a senior dance major.

and yeah, i hate thinking my depression is over
and instead it just keeps coming back. its espec-
acially frustrating bc im on zoloft now, but i still
am getting mentally f***ed over.

-steff

I am so sorry to hear this that your sad. I feel the same way but I am not pregnant and I am sorry its not what you want.I hope things get better. If you need someone to talk to let me know and I am hear to talk. I want to hear more about how you are doing. Deciding what to do with your baby has got to be the hardest desision you might ever make. I wouldnt even know what to do. Do what is best for the baby. You got this far and dont give up. Your bringing something so precious to this earth and its truley amazing. I think you are so strong because I know that I wouldnt be this strong. College is important but if you keeep the baby that might be more important. I know change is hard but try to get through it. I know I aint ready for a kid but i will be only 17 next month. But I dont think I could ever give it up. Well keep in touch with me. sorry if this is no help. I want to know more of what is going on and tell me if you still feel unhappy in the future. I am here if you need someone to ttalk to.Tell me what you decide to do. Well I wish you the best of luck with everything and your baby. -shygirl-

P.S. Is that you in the pic? How old are you?

being a mother of 2 at the age of 17 i get where your coming from, in the early weeks of my pregnancy i didnt want to do it, i wanted to give up i didnt want to be a mother Adoption is a very good thing if you can find the right people you can even opt for open adoption to where you get updates and set rules on certain things..I went through my pregnancy not wanting a baby an unexpected surprise, with my daughter my grandma took her for 6 weeks to see if i would change my mind on adoption and keep her and i did, i grew to love her i didnt feel "connected" at first because i just wasnt ready but in the end, she's the greatest thing in my life, my kids make me want to rip my hair out somedays but i couldnt see my life without them, they truly do complete me..

Good luck and best wishes,

Stefanie

our lives seem to be pretty similar right now.
not going out much, feeling down, & our boy
friends are being asses. cheers

- steff

OMG! i just couldn't love your eyes moooree!!! :) i loveed themm... and the fact that you have black hair and those eyees..!! dammit.! my eyes are almost black ... T_T :( hahahaha

you should ask for more respect from that bf... :)

beautiful belly.

-steff

You can't stay young forever. Just don't try and take the fashion wif you.

-[J]ovonnah [B]unny [R]abbit AKA [P]yromaniac [B]unny

your pretty
i love your necklace
how much do u weigh now?
if you dont wiegh 95 anymore

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

What the first best thing you can do with your mouth? lol.

Btw- your pretty.!

Hi
how are u?
At the end of the month I'm leaving MDD
so I wont have any Ana support or anything
I really can't afford to loose the support I have on here
so if you could please give me addresses (snail mail)
and cell/mobile numbers
please I wont be able to access the net at all
no thinspo, no pro ana nothing
just me
thats why Ineed you guys to repliy
please please repliy I cant afford to loose such great freinds
stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

smoking isn't worth it.
especially when you're preg.
but you know this.

i quit last winter. and after
about a week you're not
addicted anymore. it just
becomes a mental thing. 

& yeah i used to be pretty
popular. but now im antisocial.
also starting around 10th grade.
but it's totally worth it. i pretty
much hate ppl now lol

<3 steff

since when are you bigger than a 34 A?
maybe since you let your bmi get over 18
lol.

and the diet failed. my bday was the 10th
and thus my mom made cake. and therefor
i ate. a lot. ugh.

and i don't have any idea's to make your
summer A+ i've just been window shopping
and hanging out as well.

-steff

you're so pretty.
i wish i could get a tan =)
if you're free on thursday
maybe we could hang out?
text mee =)<3

i really like your eye make-up in this picture. it makes your eyes really stand out.
my bf gets pouty easily when he feels i don't give him enough attention. merrr. 

-steff

U are soooooooo pretty I like ur hair!!!

 L8R xoxo<Dj7

oh and thanks. you're very pretty too <3

-steff